And when we fight my heart races, my stomachs drops, I want to cry but most of all I just want to talk to him and sort it out nOw, if I don't I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack. This feeling is the worst feeling in the world. Boy oh boy, would not having feelings be a 100 times better. It's tea time but I'm not hungry anymore I just want him to come home sO we can talk. :(