i'm writing this down because if i do i'll be more likely to do it.

tomorrow i plan on actually studying for business studies and exercising.

and i plan on doing this everyday untill exams start.

which is only 2 weeks away, if i don't study i know i will fail.

and no one wants to fail.

i want change, but i don't know what kind of change.

for starters...
wearing makeup used to be a way of making myself feel better but now not wearing it makes me feel better, as i'm being completely me.

and when i go out, getting with people was a way of telling myself i am wanted by guys but now i just want to be wanted by one guy.
will i ever like someone though? i never seem to like anyone anymore

'someone come and show me how to live again'
<3