ticking time bomb

everything has gone crazy.

today i couldnt bring myself to get out of bed... i just got out of bed

pretending i'm fine isn't an option anymore.

i cry at the littlest things, usually music or the slightest bit of confrontation or when someone doesnt reply will just push me over the edge laterly.

some thing bad happens to me everyday, just when i think it cant get worse it freaking does..
everyday without a doubt.

i have never had so much anger bottled up.

i dont know what to do with myself when i feel like this.

so i blog, so sorry for the shitty depressing blog.

shitttttttttttttt im sorry to all my friends im putting all my shit onto or for being so grumpy laterly

but for the ones who actually help me through it dispite my bitch of a mood thankyou !

im scared of myself, because one day i know, i'm going to crack and someone is going to have to be on the end of this and it probably will not end pretty.

i freaking prayed to god, like for the first time in my whole life, and meant it.

i just want everything to get better, i want to be me again, happy me.

someone people want to be around.

ftw