i seem to be attracted to the people who don't want me, and not attracted to the people who do what me.

somehow i have to figure out how to over come this.

laterly i came across a guy who i thought was just a generally nice guy, he knew my mum, he seemed friendly and he said he would fix my car.

so i was like yeah please!?

then he said he would only do it if i want on a 2 dates with him, i thought and thought and thought about it.

but realised it was wrong, who exchanges 2 dates for 1000 dollars?

so i told him i had a thing with someone, and he said he couldn't do it anymore.

moral of my story is guys always want something, i want to meet a guy who is just nice for no reason and its just in him to try and please someone without wanting something in return.

i could be asking for too much.

i actually am going crazy at school, being around people who i either hate or they hate me isnt good for me or anyone in fact. 6 years of highschool, with the same people everyday is bound to send people crazy eventually.

one fucking term to go!

it couldnt come slower.

when i have kids, if they want to leave school, they can leave school.

but just thinking about it makes me happy because in one term i will only have to associate with the people i want too and can make a life for myself and go out and earn money.

but generally im happy when im not at school or around people who make me unhappy.

because im in my own elimate & dont care what people think.

thats is what we do

thats is what people do

they stay alive for each other.

:)